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My words will most likely fall on deaf ears... words waiting to be heard or read. Here I lie today just like yesterday and the day before, with my thoughts drifting away, and where are they going? they are searching for something that everyday seems farther and harder to reach, they are trying to find a glimmer of hope, they look everywhere, anywhere and they find nothing...nothing at all, and it's hard because for some reason we are taught "not to lose hope" "la esperanza es lo ultimo que se pierde" and some of us hang onto that tight not knowing when to let go.
And my thoughts keep on drifting be it day or night, it could be 4 pm or 4 am, my heart and my mind simply cannot tell the difference. I find myself with my eyes open just thinking, remembering, it happened today just like it happened yesterday and the day before, trying to find hope where there is none and not knowing when to let go.
I see my phone, and it is funny because I keep it off and yet I look at it hoping that it would ring, waiting for a ghostly phone call that I know will not come, a text message that my mind tricks me into thinking that might have gotten lost on the way to my phone. I hope that this message will not get lost in time and space or that it will not fall in deaf ears... this message is waiting to be heard or read, I know that this message will most likely not get to the person it is intended to, but I hope that those that read it find some type of meaning in it, meanwhile I'll keep trying to find hope where there is none and maybe in the end I'll know when to let go.

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DaNo1Mamacita
DaNo1Mam...

Female, 33, Bronx, NY

Posted September 17, 2009


never let go. keep on hoping, because that gives u strength in the long run. even though she might not be reading this message, eventually.... your words will get to her! be strong hun. xo


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Female, 31, Dacula, GA

Posted September 17, 2009


Ive been holding on to hope for really long time now..hoping that the thoughts I have arent completely unheard or my feelings at that. Ill call u...ill give u hope...ill listen...just so u know...not everything u think or say falls on deafs ear...sometimes they fall on faiths nd angels ears. Smile.


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Female, 31, Wasco, CA

Posted September 17, 2009


Wow I am impressed and amazed at how well that was explained.... and i feel you on the hope thing... its like nowadays especially we look for hope rather then hold onto it. I am sure that soon you will discover whether it was good thing you held onto the idea of hope or whether you should let it go but until then I wish you the best... Smile always... and know that the grass is not always greener on the other side... if its not green on your side.. then all it take is taking out the old yellow dried grass and planting some new seeds and nurtiousing it ;) so it'll grow.... (hope that made sense)

izzy <3.


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Female, 39, South Gate, CA

Posted September 17, 2009


ur words i can so relate. what u wrote sounded so sad but yet it made me think. by the way dont give up no matther what even if it seems so not reachable at that moment in time .


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Female, Age Private, Vista, CA

Posted September 17, 2009


Te lo digo de experiencia, if that person you're hoping the message gets to was worth it, you would've never had to post this message. Sometimes we feel that we are nothing, or at least not who we thought we were, without this person, but remember you have always been you with or without her. She was just a good addition to the great person you probably are, but she did not make you who you are. You are you because you know your self worth. It's definitely not easy, but you need to remember "Con Dios adelante, todo es posible" Never let another person define you!! Learn from whatever happened and put your left foot in front of your right and keep moving forward. Don't live your life expecting this person to come back, life your life expecting the PERFECT person to walk into your life. Cuidate and Good Luck. Ciao..


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Female, 31, Bronx, NY

Posted September 17, 2009


NICE IM FEELING IT.WELL ITS BETTER TO BE HOPEING AND EVENTUALY LEARN TO LIVE WITH THE THOUGHT THAT CAN'T BE NO MORE.THEN BEING IN WHY THIS AGAIN?."I GOT OVER IT ONCE AND I WAS FINE".WHY? WHY FALL AND OPEN A AGONISING WOND.ONE CAN ONLY THINK WHAT ONE WANTS. BUT REGARDLESS ALL THE OPTICULS LIFE GIVES USTHE MORE WE HURT THE MORE WE MISS. LOVE IS NOT A FEELING IS AN ABILITY. BUT YET LA COSTUMBRE ES MAS FUERTE QUE LA AMOR.


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Female, 29, Bronx, NY

Posted September 17, 2009


this message definetly didnt fall on deaf ears. u almost made me cry n thats hard to do. i can relate to those words. all i can say that hasnt been said before or after me is never give up on whatever or whoever this piece is about.


nwktemptation
nwktempt...

Female, 31, Newark, NJ

Posted September 17, 2009


i can completely relate to your issue..... Im going through it myself and the agony that comes with the waiting is what hurts the most :(


cubanita_divina
cubanita...

Female, 33, Orlando, FL

Posted September 17, 2009


Its been 5 months 16 days and 3 hours since i've been gripping on to hope so tight that its nearly chocked all the oxygen my blood had been carrying.. i lay there in my bed night after night HOPING that when i wake up I'll feel those arms wrapped around my body, but nothing happens. Evening comes and goes and nothing but deep in side the HOPE remains that it just needs time. Pero how much time do i have to give? How do i move forward and realize that the THIS hope is no longer healthy? Do i turn to faith and put all my efforts in knowing that destiny shall prevail. Day and night I fight this battle of smiling at the past but crying in the present and afraid to see the future. I know its not right i can feel my body fighting for a chance to run into the future but my mind is like a ton of bricks that prevents this from happening. As much as hope is choking me, i have hope that i'll learn of a new hope and bust through those bricks in my mind. I am me lost in the valley of hope trying to find my way to the mountains of truth.

so as i read your blog i feel like im suddenly not that lost, that the light of the mountains are closer and closer. Together we find the way.


chrissy_love
chrissy_...

Female, 40, Fort Worth, TX

Posted September 17, 2009


Hope is a wonderful thing to hang on to. Though it seems to be just a microbial spec of almost nothingness....it's STILL there....hang on with the might of a thousand soldiers, your words are what you have to keep you sane..Believe me I know.


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